Hello everyone. This is just a quick post to talk about my follow-up doctor's visit yesterday.
For those of you who don't know, I've been sick since December 28th. I caught a virus and/or cold, which spiraled into strep, and then again morphed into a severe case of pneumonia. As a result, I now have a full-blown case of asthma.
The doctor wasn't happy yesterday, let's just say that. He doesn't think I have a bacterial infection anymore, but my lungs are still full of congestion and the asthma is not improving. He switched out my meds once again and is hoping it will help; however, if it doesn't, I'm looking at seeing a pulmonary specialist and possibly an extended stay at the hospital. He did not increase my steroids back to what they were, which he really wanted to do, but I'm suffering from too many side effects so he is trying something else, instead. The doctor prescribed a different non-steroidal oral anti inflammatory on top of the steroids in hopes that this will give me the extra boost I apparently need.
I asked the doctor to put me in physical therapy, but he doesn't want me exercising right now because it will only exacerbate the asthma. I asked him about helping me with either a water pill or diet aide, but he also doesn't want me taking anything for dieting right now with all the other meds I'm on. He did, however, prescribe a water pill, but warned me ahead of time that it probably won't do anything.
The doctor also wants me to call my ear, nose and throat doctor and schedule myself for tubes in my ears and surgery to have my tonsils out...fun. My right ear is trying to become infected again and my sinuses are congested, too. This is long overdue--I should have had it done years ago.
Basically, the bottom line is that I need to have patience--this thing is going nowhere fast. I wasn't surprised by anything except the fact that he doesn't want me to exercise. He said I can walk a little, but that any exercising I do right now is only going to make me feel more tired, since I'm not getting enough air in my bloodstream. I've been so sick that my body isn't going to do anything fast, even if I feel like I want it to.
I had hoped the news would be better. My wheezing is very bad, even though I'm doing every single thing the doctor has prescribed, including being chained to this nebulizer machine every four hours.
I'd be lying if I said I wasn't disappointed, but I've been thinking things over and I believe wholeheartedly that we are, in life, right where our Father wants us to be. Is there something to learn from this experience? He's keeping me still and quiet...is there something He is trying to tell me? I think so. I think there is much to be learned and I will meditate and pray on exactly what that may be.
In the meantime, I realize that I have absolutely no control over my recovery. I've been trying to think of things all along that might help move my recovery process in the right direction, but it seems as though that is not what I need to be doing right now.
My final thought...I think maybe I need to give up trying to control things and just trust that God has me exactly where He wants me to be right now. Patience is the name of the game and I need to let go and let God.
That's it in a nutshell. Thanks for listening.
Merilee